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[Jul. 26th, 2004|05:54 pm] |
cassie is there something you're not telling me???
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[Jun. 16th, 2004|08:01 pm] |
cassi...
i love her and i love being friends with her and i want us to be great friends... i really want us to be friends but i feel as if we have drifted lately and i dont know what to do to change that.. and a message for cass
cass: we need to get together and hang out like we used to i want us to get reaquainted i luv hearing all your little adventures...
im from holland isnt that veird |
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[Jun. 7th, 2004|08:22 pm] |
OMG STELLA LOOK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I DIDN TKNOW THAT YOU STALKED ME
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[Jun. 3rd, 2004|08:04 pm] |
THATS ALL I HAVE TO SAY READ THE LABEL......
THATS RIGHT PEOPLE THE TRUTH SPEAKS!!!
| PARENTAL | | ADVISORY | MEL CONTAINS
EXPLICIT LYRICS |
From Go-Quiz.com |
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[May. 21st, 2004|01:45 pm] |
there is one day until my birthday!!! and the spacebar onmylaptop isnt working very well....
goingout tonight and tomorrow night yay!!!
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[May. 6th, 2004|07:55 pm] |
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well this is my recap of camp life.
left on monday with my pillow... and all my luggage and lollies and all dat shit, gawd it was heavy, (mich danni cass and laurens lollies i might add)
we went on the busses, i was on michelles and dannis bus so i sat with helen who ended up in my cabin! we got there and got out cabns and stuff and then we went on our activities... i was in bodyboarding with kerry and elise (shes really nice!) and maddie and calvin and all them!it was really fun... we got back to camp and just as i got into my cabin the canoe'ers were there and i had 2 yes 2 in my cabin so i had no shower to use so i ran down and was able to use the shower in cassies cabin. i really feel like cass and i bonded in camp.. that night after tea which was chicken in pyjamas well i think it was a chicken nugget who had been injecting steriods for a while! ;) and ice cram for desert, well i had ice cream on my spoon and aimed for sonia but hit stella sowwie bubs... it was sooooooooooo funny! yeah that was the highlight of that night, EXCEPT of the minty freshness!!! only a few of you will understand this but if you do gawd.. sorry michelle! it was THE funniest thing, we had trivia night and surprise surprise our team name was minty freshness... we sucked balls at most of them but yeah! the next day (tuesday) we had jules come and speak it was sooooooooooo emotional, everyone has been asking me, what was it he said that made you cry, but it wasnt one thing it was a mixture, he is soooo inspirational... we had to lie on our backs and think of a friend of ours, but at there feet was their bags, packed, there leaving indefinately and you may not ever see them again, and you only have 30 seconds to say goodbye, what do you say (thats where i started crying) and stuff like that... i thought of stella. shes such an inspiration to me, i want to be more like her, shes always positive and caring..! we then we had to sit in a 'huddle' and tell each other how we feel about each other, if thats how you put it. yeah well im sitting there trying to regain my self and then kerryn had to go and say something which totally surprised me... she said something along these lines,
" melissa, i know we havnt spoken much since year seven, but even though i've been a bitch to you, everyday you say hello and smile, that smile and hello everyday means so much to me and i love you so much" and then jules said does anyone want to add on to that about melissa. (sounds wierd with my full name) and kerry said " yeah shes a great person, who i can always have fun with, we sat next to each other in maths last year and we had a great time i miss that mel" and then Steph moran said something like "thanks for taking the time to say hello to me mel, and talk to me in english i love our little chats" i had lost it, so had they lucky i was sitting next to cass. she just enveloped me in a much needed hug... thanx darls. and people were saying stuff about each other for like 2hrs and then he put on my FAVOURITE SONG and let us walk around and talk to people.. i saw all my old friends and it was great i didnt know that i made so many peoples days just by a simple hello now and then, but apparantly it works...
we went to the penguin parade that night, twas shit... had red faces that night, cant really explain but danni was a judge called dusty! cus her last name is rhodes! yeah we packed that night and we went home the next day in which DANNI stole my pillow, not on purpose i think i forgot it!! my bad! well anyway back to jules the song he put on was Perfect by a simple plan... here is the lyrics...
Hey dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
And do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do?
But it hurts when you disapprove all along
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that
I'm alright
And you can't change me
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard
Just to talk to you
But you don't understand
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
the song is great and i think it was the PERFECT choice for that moment!
well im off too sleepcuz i just had production and it was Boring and i have a headache...
*~mrs parti boy knoxville~* |
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[Apr. 28th, 2004|12:06 pm] |
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im in it and it sux me and caitlin are sitting together and were like making fun of poeple like maybe not?
its funny...
omg im listenting to people laughing omg so annoyingness..!!! they know i love them!!
well buhbyes
cass 3 months!!! yay |
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[Apr. 25th, 2004|08:32 pm] |
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had a pretty boring day today,
it's anzac day, Australian and New Zealand Army Corps day, a day to honour all the people who went to war and fought to save our country. yeah yeah yeah, i know what you all are thinking what the F*** is mel on about well i am too, weird me saying shit like that.
But yeah, i had a very boring day, had really weird sleeping pattern, i had a dream that me and sonia and two old people were in some computer shop and sonia and i went out to go to the bounty shop when we heard gun shots and saw people running into the bounty shop in blaclavas so we ran back into the computer shop and hid with allen then he disappeared and then this old guy was handing me animals from the bounty shop for me to set free and it was weird i woke up in a sweat from that and it was about 3:43am... scary thn i fell asleep sitting up and re-awoke at about 4:30ish really cold, realising that yet again i had thrown my doona off in some sort of rage against the bounty shop shooters/killers/animal haters/helpers?!(a lil bit of WHAT THE!!)
i then woke up at about 9:30 and watched some tv until i had to get ready for work what a bore..
i went out to the car before we were about to leave opened the drivers door, put in the key put the car into neutral and switched the key to accesories. walked around to the front passenger side to switch channels to triple M to listen to the footy, got out closed the door got into the backseat as my mum was coming for a ride, just as i sit down this GIGANTIC MAMA OF A SPIDER fell on me, well me being SHIT scared of spiders, freaked jumped across the seat jumped out the other side, ran into the middle of the court screaming, well my mum didnt see this and came out about to get into the car, i scream dont get into the car, shes like why and im like a huge spider jumped on me, by this time i was sooooooooo freaked, my hands started shaking more that normal i went fright white and i was almost crying, then my dad opened the car door and saw this mama spider, flicked it onto the grass, and i think that the spider was either really lonely or fucking horny cuz it ran striaght for his leg intending to climb up it where my dad stood on it, but this spider was on a mission. he didnt die, but then he threw a brink onto the spider and FINALLY that killed it, well was i a nervous wreck getting to work, i was shaking and hyperventilating, and luckily i was early enough that i could calm down, but i wanted to puke, lucky though that no one at work noticed that i was any different, somehow i had managed to contain the shakes to a minimum and get some colour into my face in the space of a couple of minutes.
well thats about enough of my scary yet VERY boring day, but yeah!!
p.s if any one likes the speciality cheeses at safeways seaford they have mostly been marked down to asbout $2 or less!!! yay go me! i did that!! |
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[Apr. 21st, 2004|09:06 pm] |
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havnt updated this in like light years (yes i know its kylie minogues album but i don care i hate her) bout some new guitar picks today, and went to layby a new drum kit there so expensive i mean the one i want is 599 and its gunna take me AGES to pay it off so im gunna use mt old one for awhile.
had crappy r.e excursion today, quite boring and i think i have an idea..!!!
well off to do design homework and play guitar!!!
mel |
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[Apr. 5th, 2004|09:39 pm] |
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gotta love queer eye!!
well shitty day today.... not really. i spent the day with sarp....!! i like! nah we didnt do much, i mean we havn't even properely kissed yet, not like someone i know!! *WiNK wInk* you know who you are! nah we had a good day. i couldnt really keep my mid set on anything today, and i was tired, cuz i aint been sleeping well lately, i dont know why but i arnt, and ive been going to the gym every day and that cant be helping but i need to get into shape... ive got the production (if i last that long) and the formal... so much to wait for! i was thinking of how gorjuz everyone will look at the formal and it got me thinking, if im there WHAT THE F*CK am i gunna wear or how am i gunna do my hair, oh well. we'll cross that bridge when we come to it. GOD Jai and Kyan are sooooooooo hot.... grr.... sxc beasts....
i think im falling out of love, does it really matter? what really matters? |
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[Apr. 1st, 2004|07:17 pm] |
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i miss her sooo much and were not friends, sonia reakons my life revolves around her but it doesnt but she has been my CLOSEST best friend and when your best friend stops talking to you without prior warning and dusnt talk to you it really hurts i dont think ive made it that noticable but i miss her so much i miss when we used to laugh over the silliest little things and how when we would both get to school we would just talk and talk and i miss having a best friend i can talk to and rely on to be there... and the best times where when we used to do dance, we'd muck round and have fun and when she listened to me to try out for the production, and when she got in and i thought i didnt we were soooo happy yet sad.... i was really proud of her.... and now were both in it and were not even talking so we cant enjoy it... i really really miss her, and we even took the same subjects last year as each other so we would be together in them and we are, not all of them but like 5 next semester and we wont even be friends to witness it... i just wish that all this shit didnt happen and we went back to the way things were but i know even if i apologize that wont do anything it seems as if lori is a better friend than i am...
but if you read this michelle... i love you and i miss you sooooooo much... pls can we go back to being friends...
this is the song that my sister wants played at her funeral and some of the words i think of you
As I go running along your street
I will squeeze the life out of you
You will make me laugh and make me cry
And we will never forget it
You will make me call your name
And I'll shout it to the blue summer sky
And we may never meet again
And you will throw your arms around me
Yeah, you will throw your arms around me
So if you disappear out of view
You know I will never say goodbye
And though I try to forget it
You will make me call your name
And I'll shout it to the blue summer sky...
And we may never meet again...
And you will throw your arms around me
Yeah, you will throw your arms around me
You will throw your arms around me...
Yeah, you will throw your arms around me.... |
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[Mar. 31st, 2004|01:45 pm] |
its all over.... my happiness and my actual good year here at john paul... over some shit that someone said i have like 2 friends... and everyone i ever cared about has been turned against me... for those who read this.. maybe you do care about me and maybe you dont want to make my life a living hell... this person that has totally turned everyone against me and has made my life a living hell. i have one thing to say i hate you, i hate you with a passion.. you have made my life here shit... you have turned the people i canre about against me. you dont understand the pain you have caused me.... and if anyone just one person would listen to my side of it maybe it can be s0rted out but no.... no one would ever want to be on my side no way not mels...
fuck it all and FUCK life |
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[Mar. 21st, 2004|08:01 pm] |
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events of today...
Fell down the stairs really hurt my back this morning on the way to work.
i was on my break and i went to my locker i bent down to get something off the floor and smashed my head really hard of the edge of the locker. and fainted, im lucky that my mate was there with me to help me. then this afternoon i was cutting something and i cut my finger.... owwies...
not a very lucky day...
oh well
im tired
heading off too bed cuz i started at 6 this morning and finished at 3... grrrrrrrrrr. tiredness
had a fight wid someone just before oh well...
best bee off
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[Mar. 19th, 2004|10:17 pm] |
just got home from work. easy night tonight, no midnight..
im tired and i have to go and do my design project...
short entry i know..
more tomorrow.. but guess what i woke up at like 1pm, the phone woke me up, by the time i got to it it stopped... so i go back to bed just as im settled under the covers all warm, it starts ringing again, i get to it it hangs up... lucky for caller id... i think it was michelle but im not too sure... so I WAS WOKEN up at 1pm...:( |
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[Mar. 18th, 2004|06:06 pm] |
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fucking shit peice of crap bloody shit
michelle shitted me up the wall... i mean i go out of my way to get HER tickets to her favourite singer (not like we dont know) Enrique and what does she do, oh nah i dont want them... all day she was happy wid me and luved me cuz i got the for her, i know that deep down she wanted them but i think that she either, dusnt like me and dusnt want me 2 think that she does, or she didnt want to take my stuff... oh well.
PEOPLE PEOPLE PEOPLE what is your obsession with the nerdy geeks, grr it is SHITTING me right off... get over them its not their fault if they have no frenz, leave it be, nerds and geeks were made to have them, its their destiny, dont change destiny... its the way its meant to be... leave it alone.. and move on, dont waste your voice box or laughter on those.. who are less fourtunate... god...
well.. thats about it for now... but i think im getting my period so people get ready to read a whole load of bitchiness comming your way.... |
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[Mar. 15th, 2004|01:45 pm] |
blechh... school 5th period. very bad. lunch time went for a walk with luke came back to find my friends, the people i hang out with were hanging with the GEEKS i felt sooo bad, it was sooo feral i mean people i spend time with people i HUG were mixing with the people who wipe their noses and look at the contents of the tissue and wear glasses and are feral i felt violently sick, it was fucking robert plaskett and elbow knees and stairsey grrr so so so feral, i can tolerate calvin and sometimes mark, but FUCKING julian YUCK. bloody hans i call him, hans moleman from bloody simpsons cuz of the mole on his face, he is so rude and mean to people yet the people who are meant to like me were mingling with him. do they have no sanity?? and cass man???
he does deserve you and u do enuff for him and i need 2 talk to you really bad babe... |
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[Mar. 12th, 2004|10:58 pm] |
bueno sólo stella sabe cómo hablar español y salto que ella doesnt leyó esto.. pero yo realmente wanna llega a ser mejores amigos con su y espero realmente que un día que podemos ser como fin como katie y sonia o mel y mel, pero dudan que eso sucederá, yo me puse piensa ese im bastante bueno para ella, yo pienso que yo me puse empareja sus estándares, yo im maloun peice de lowlife de la mierda y shes como esta super persona humana quien todos adora. dios que acabo de desear que quizá algún día de algún modo nosotros llegaremos a ser amigos buenos
nadie sabe esto, y yo se pusieron piensa que cualquiera puede decir. pero odio la mayoría de los otras personas. los males en su mayor parte, ellos pueden aceptar a personas para que ellos son, ellos sólo pasan jamás la apariencia. significo que sé im no la chica más bonita ni la chica más delgada (eso no demasiado sutil me mira im el tamaño de un autobús) y sé que puedo ser fuerte pero pude a personas ven apenas¿Por la grasa y la fealdad y ve el verdadero mí adentro? el agradable, cuidando a chica chistosa que yo trully soy. ... yo personas malas siempre dicen lo que ellos piensan las otras necesidades de persona para oír, querer "ah su no gordo ni ah su no feo su magnífico" odio el patronisation en sus voces. geez y quiero realmente hacerme lloro, ellos pueden aceptar que tengo los sentimientos? Que puedo ser algo de otra manera que un perdedor. Las personas en la escuela, las personas en la calle, las personas que son significadas para ser mis amigos que todos hacen. por qué hace yo lo tengo que embotellar todo arriba. por qué isnt allí alguien yo puedo hablar a y a dios de confianza que deseo que tuviera a un amigo verdadero. |
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[Mar. 11th, 2004|09:50 pm] |
today kylie had yet ANOTHER nervous breakdown about yes. you guessed it COLIN again, all day yesterday she was crying about how that her life was ruined and how that she wants him back so much and how she wisshes that he wouldnt call her anymore, but then when she is over the crying stage she is all like, oh i wish he would just call me and we can sort things out and go back to the way it was, i mean HELLO... your 16 hes 18, your at the age where you can have fun and date so many guys not just settle down with one and hes going to be your life long love. jeez, anyways. today was a better day than yesterday for one thing i didnt have " i want to break free" stuck in my head the entire day, i mean i like that song but for a WHOLE day it gets really annoying especially when you only know those words. Cassie was at school today thankgod. but we didnt have buisness studies...:( we do tomorrow and i swear if that hadious bitch comes near me or tries to be friendly im gunna cut sick, she is such a trollop. god bloody paralyzed face woman with the demented hair.. well a certain some one and i got back together today, this person realised that they were in the wrong and apologized and me being my humble self took them back in my subconscious manner.
i look like a fashion blunder at the moment or a fashion fau par if you will. ive got my school dress on with the huge blood stain on the front where i cut my finger and the blood spurted out everywhere. my socks are half falling down and my hair is in shambles. god knows why i look like this but i cant be screwed trying, i mean who do i have to impress? why should i try its not like anyone notices me anymore anyways. the only person who i really cared about has totally dissed me for some one new. and im not talking about a dude. its a chic and we were frenz. but im not so sure anymore.
grrrrrrrrrr. i got a message from samii Sent: 11-Mar-2004 20:31:21
saying exactly:
Hi hunny how r u
im good mssing u love samii
xoxoxo
i mean god what an improvment.. its better than the nothingness that ive been recieving much like my life lately full of empty space, a revolving time of no movement or energy to uplift the spirits. geez whered that come from. god i suck at poetry except when i really try, then im ok.
well bets be off..
mwahs mwahs and cass tell me what u had to tell me from ur yesterdays entry. |
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